I’m almost at the peak no i can’t fall trying to understand the essence that was once there. Feeling enclosed like a barricade alone and shut off from the world. In time the light will shine bright and deep so that I may see again, feel again, know again. I often have trouble finding the right words to speak. Unencumbered and altered nonetheless my thoughts trouble me. Only time will tell if i will be right as rain or up to snuff. For this pain hurts so it is becoming unbearable.